365 Days of Migraine, Days 40 & 41

I am trying not to feel as though increasing my Cymbalta again is a defeat. I have been fairly debilitated by depression for about six weeks; I’ve waited long enough. I’m hoping that the improvement will come soon. A longtime family friend commented on Facebook today that she thinks of Migraine365 as a “graphic journal.”…

Top Ten Reasons To Buy A Migraine365 Shirt

I’m showing my age here, aren’t I? When I went to college in the early 90’s top ten lists were all the rage, thanks to David Letterman. I must have had 3 or 4 different t-shirts from my university, my honors college, my dorm… all top ten lists. And pretty lame, really. But after a…

Days 34 – 39 | Charlotte’s Web & a hard week

I have been soul-dead this past week. So much so that I know I have to return to my original, higher dose of Cymbalta after so carefully and triumphantly decreasing to 30 mg six months ago. My headaches have been some improved, so my depression got worse. That’s what happens. I don’t know if it’s…

Days 32 & 33 | Intractable Migraine Continues

More searing head pain. More phonophobia. More allodynia. More cognitive impairment. More worry and frustration. We got a little behind on Migraine365 and J worked hard to get these pages done today so I want to get them posted. I will come back and do the text some other time. Days 32 & 33, “Migraine…

Pain, pain go away

Don’t come back another day Since this headache started early Saturday afternoon I have taken many, many medications. I had a list here (just because it’s kind of fun), but am removing it because it worried my mom (“Mama Migraine,” I think that’s cute). Every time I have an intractable migraine, I take many varying…

31 Days of Migraine365 | “Information Overload”

Today has been a good day. J and I both are feeling pretty triumphant about completing our first month of the Migraine365 project. We’re not quite sure exactly which direction to take at this point. Considering Kickstarter, or contacting publishers directly. At the same time, I feel like 365 pages of chronic illness is a…

Day 30: Necessities

I’m at X’s play practice – Charlotte’s Web – at a high school about 10 miles from where we live. Zo’s kindergarten best friend, A, is the sister of “Wilbur” and the little girl who plays Joy the baby spider. Their mom is the president of Youth Theatre Club. It all seems super convenient and…

Day 29: The Way Through

Text of Page: 09.16.14 | Day 29: The Way Through | Migraine365 | Medical debts | Zo’s ballet bag | Zo | elizabeth | We needed light bulbs, yogurt, and juice | Crushing depression today. Sleep disturbed by realistic dreams of heartbreak and homelessness. I didn’t know how I was going to get Zo to…

The Future Is Now!!

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Day 28: The Pain Cycle

Things are pretty dismal. I may blog more about it later, or I may not. Here is yesterday’s Migraine365 page: Text of Page: 09.15.14 | Day 28: The Pain Cycle | Migraine365 | Migraine –> Time Lost –> Depression –> Tidal Wave [dishes / rest / house / bills / laundry / kids / work…

Day 27: Horse Lessons | Bank meeting

I love Fall, but 60’s and cloudy is a shitty combination. It’s chilly and damp, damp that seeps into your bones, without real rain, but it seems to always be threatening. I HATE when it’s hot, I do. But the weather the last few days seems wrapped up in how I’m feeling, which is dark,…

Day 26, “everyday”

Today I woke up feeling like total crap. No one (including X) wanted to go to horse lessons, but I had to, because J has become very afraid of X riding. So I didn’t put any makeup or bra on and decided I wasn’t going to get out of the car. I felt awful. I…