Chapter 1967: My Man Wrote a Short Story

Chapter 1967 By The Mechanical Cat Norma Jeane leaned back in the wooden chair and gently let her hand drift down her leg to feel the comfort of the snub-nosed .38, snugly holstered against her earthly thigh. A wisp of smoke left her mouth and danced toward the ceiling of the cabin. “Well, since every…

Day 42: Weather Break part I

Just the page for now. I am going to take a nap with the cool, cloudy breeze floating in, soothing away the last remnants of the sinus / migraine I woke up with. Sweet relief, warm pillowy bed.

365 Days of Migraine, Days 40 & 41

I am trying not to feel as though increasing my Cymbalta again is a defeat. I have been fairly debilitated by depression for about six weeks; I’ve waited long enough. I’m hoping that the improvement will come soon. A longtime family friend commented on Facebook today that she thinks of Migraine365 as a “graphic journal.”…

Days 34 – 39 | Charlotte’s Web & a hard week

I have been soul-dead this past week. So much so that I know I have to return to my original, higher dose of Cymbalta after so carefully and triumphantly decreasing to 30 mg six months ago. My headaches have been some improved, so my depression got worse. That’s what happens. I don’t know if it’s…

Days 32 & 33 | Intractable Migraine Continues

More searing head pain. More phonophobia. More allodynia. More cognitive impairment. More worry and frustration. We got a little behind on Migraine365 and J worked hard to get these pages done today so I want to get them posted. I will come back and do the text some other time. Days 32 & 33, “Migraine…

31 Days of Migraine365 | “Information Overload”

Today has been a good day. J and I both are feeling pretty triumphant about completing our first month of the Migraine365 project. We’re not quite sure exactly which direction to take at this point. Considering Kickstarter, or contacting publishers directly. At the same time, I feel like 365 pages of chronic illness is a…

Day 30: Necessities

I’m at X’s play practice – Charlotte’s Web – at a high school about 10 miles from where we live. Zo’s kindergarten best friend, A, is the sister of “Wilbur” and the little girl who plays Joy the baby spider. Their mom is the president of Youth Theatre Club. It all seems super convenient and…

Day 29: The Way Through

Text of Page: 09.16.14 | Day 29: The Way Through | Migraine365 | Medical debts | Zo’s ballet bag | Zo | elizabeth | We needed light bulbs, yogurt, and juice | Crushing depression today. Sleep disturbed by realistic dreams of heartbreak and homelessness. I didn’t know how I was going to get Zo to…

Day 28: The Pain Cycle

Things are pretty dismal. I may blog more about it later, or I may not. Here is yesterday’s Migraine365 page: Text of Page: 09.15.14 | Day 28: The Pain Cycle | Migraine365 | Migraine –> Time Lost –> Depression –> Tidal Wave [dishes / rest / house / bills / laundry / kids / work…

Day 27: Horse Lessons | Bank meeting

I love Fall, but 60’s and cloudy is a shitty combination. It’s chilly and damp, damp that seeps into your bones, without real rain, but it seems to always be threatening. I HATE when it’s hot, I do. But the weather the last few days seems wrapped up in how I’m feeling, which is dark,…

Day 26, “everyday”

Today I woke up feeling like total crap. No one (including X) wanted to go to horse lessons, but I had to, because J has become very afraid of X riding. So I didn’t put any makeup or bra on and decided I wasn’t going to get out of the car. I felt awful. I…

Day 25: Who We Are

I feel a little weird today, and I’m not sure why. Yesterday, actually, was fantastic. I finally got the phone call made to the office of my new neurologist, and that appointment is on October 29. I also talked to my childhood friend who is a research nurse at MHNI. We’ve been kind of playing…