Turn And Face The Strange

Today is my birthday. In general, like many adults, I dread this day every year. Not because I have a problem with my age so much as the marking of another 365 days gone by, facing where I am in juxtaposition with where I feel I should be, or thought I would be. I am…

Migraine Milestones

Today was my seventh Green Day of the month. I have not been to the ER for six weeks, four days. We traveled by car today, for about three hours, total. A trip to Lake Erie, and to find the old farmhouse where I spent my first eight years. I didn’t need to take an…

Happens Once Per Year, or so

So, I have only had to take TYLENOL today. What’s up with that? I’ve been running around too, and I even napped. I don’t have much hope that I’ll really make it through my entire day without taking something stronger… but I’ll let you know.

I Will Not Freak Out.

So, I have this appointment today. At a Pain Management Clinic. I really, really feel like I am heading into some kind of factory, or… what? A prison? don’t even know. Why am I so terrified? I need to keep reminding myself that I’m not just going there on my own, in a fit of…

Symptomatic & Stressed

I don’t know what’s going on with me. Since Thursday I’ve been sick. I don’t know if it’s cluster-style shadow pain; a cold or virus; a sinus infection; prodrome to a significant migraine. At least I know it’s not medication side effects, since I haven’t started anything new. Oxygen and sumatriptan tablets and injection did…

#MHAM Photo Challenge, Day 25: Healthy Habit

I do not have many healthy habits, though I try to eat regularly outside my triggers; sleep the same amount every night; and avoid activities and behaviors that will lead to pain in myself or others. However I don’t exercise enough, and I don’t drink enough water. My dad used to feel convinced that dehydration…

The Most Important Thing: Validation.

The appointment with C. when I was prescribed the oxygen for home use went so badly I didn’t write much about it. I cried; I basically begged. My pain therapist had thought my case warranted a prescription for narcotics, and made me feel like I mattered, like how I felt and feared¬†mattered. ¬†The nurse I…

On “The Daily Migraine” Best Headache Blogger List!

I am so honored that The Daily Migraine listed my blog alongside greats like Diana Lee (somebodyhealme), Teri Robert, Ellen S, Kerrie Smyres of The Daily Headache, and Michael of Migraine Discussions. I am also on Twitter as @headcase73, for you tweetheads! This could not have come at a better time for me, as I’ve…

#MHAM Photo Challenge, Day 19: Self-Portrait

I take a lot of “selfies.” I am proud of how I look, even at 40, and my tattoos add another dimension to my appearance. The middle image in the above triptych is of the tattoo on my left upper arm, a silhouette of me in kindergarten, with a “happy brain” and stars added to…

#MHAM Photo Challenge Day 15: Technology

Technology, the internet specifically, is how I stay in touch with friends and family. I am no longer working, which makes me feel isolated and without purpose, but connecting with other pain warriors as I join them in spreading awareness eases some of that for me. If it weren’t for technology… I’d have no friends…

#MHAM Photo Challenge Day 11: Sad

Today we got a warning from the City about our “lawn.” I put that in quotes because to me a lawn is landscaped, and ours is just a bunch of ragged grass. J cut it just over a week ago, and it already looks bad. Apparently someone complained about it, because that’s the only time…