Fireworks, Internal and External

This has been a crazy roller coaster of a week. Fresh from my pain management victory on Tuesday, I called our local Social Security office Wednesday morning to talk to Ms F, my case worker there. Unlike so many others I know, I was approved for Disability status immediately, but not for actual monetary benefits….

#MHAM Photo Challenge Day 15: Technology

Technology, the internet specifically, is how I stay in touch with friends and family. I am no longer working, which makes me feel isolated and without purpose, but connecting with other pain warriors as I join them in spreading awareness eases some of that for me. If it weren’t for technology… I’d have no friends…

Good Things.

Very soon after I wrote the WWED entry, on February 18, things lined up in that magical way that sometimes happens, the way that makes me feel like the universe is letting me know I’m doing something right. It started with panic. I had a week or so left of my Ritalin preventative, no Ativan,…

The Migraine Diaries: Prologue [2014]

At this point in my life, without assignments or deadlines, I can only write what I know best. Recently I find it easier to chronicle my headache history, which is firm and rooted, rather than hashing over my still painful and uncertain present. I have fictionalized by renaming, combining, and filling in, but never exaggerating….

In Through The Out Door

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I have noticed that the times I’m most depressed, I don’t have a migraine. Could the depression be part of the prodrome? Is it that the chemicals usually involved in my headache don’t have anything else to do? Bored serotonin, making me miserable. Until recently I don’t…

Heaven Beside You / Hell Within

I am lying here in bed with tears streaming down my face, pooling on my neck in little puddles. I could not take X to school this morning and my parents have Zo. John went back to work with Trey the Tree King. I can tell you for sure that crying hysterically does nothing good…

Little Girl X

Getting over the four shots of DHE I had yesterday, my stomach roils angrily and my head still hurts just enough to be annoying. I’m spending another day in bed, at least partially. Zo sleeps part of the night with us, invariably. So I was none too thrilled when X wandered in at 3 am…

Blind

*I usually don’t go for rhyming poetry, but this seemed to write itself today. John’s birthday was yesterday and by bedtime it had become particularly difficult. Sometimes, it’s true, migraines are emotional, stress and fear leaking from the heart to the mind. And so. New snow, that breathless bright white Usually brings joy, but some…

Blind

*I usually don’t go for rhyming poetry, but this seemed to write itself today. John’s birthday was yesterday and by bedtime it had become particularly difficult. Sometimes, it’s true, migraines are emotional, stress and fear leaking from the heart to the mind. And so. New snow, that breathless bright white Usually brings joy, but some…

The Liebster Award

I have been writing this blog since April 2, 2012 but only moved to WordPress from Blogger last Saturday. There have been a lot of changes in my household since that first entry, mainly that there is now no one working outside the home. I had to quit my government job because I was missing…

I love my dog part 2

It’s amazing how any time I manage to write about something positive, there is an equal and opposite reaction to contradict what I’ve expressed to the world. Because I was down, the night got crazy. Both my mother-in-law and my dad had to come over at different times which worked Asia up. Then she probably…