Day 27: Horse Lessons | Bank meeting

I love Fall, but 60’s and cloudy is a shitty combination. It’s chilly and damp, damp that seeps into your bones, without real rain, but it seems to always be threatening. I HATE when it’s hot, I do. But the weather the last few days seems wrapped up in how I’m feeling, which is dark,…

Lesions & Lessons (or: Life Sucks and Then You Go Back To Bed)

Today has been a Very Bad Day. It started with a terrible headache, pulsating in rhythm with the twitching of my left eye, which has been happening recently upon the acquisition of an ugly, painful, stigmata-like wound on my corresponding temple. Starting as an odd, tiny bump, it increased in size and noticeability as I…

Grouchy.

I am in a terrible mood. My head has been lurking in the 3-4 range for days, not enough to even lie down with, but enough to hurt. Enough to make every job, every trip back and forth to Zo’s nature camp or the store or the dog park, every run of the dishwasher or…

#MHAM Photo Challenge Day 15: Technology

Technology, the internet specifically, is how I stay in touch with friends and family. I am no longer working, which makes me feel isolated and without purpose, but connecting with other pain warriors as I join them in spreading awareness eases some of that for me. If it weren’t for technology… I’d have no friends…

This sucks

I am alone and feel like I’m falling apart. We are both emotionally unstable and I am chronically ill. My beautiful girls are basically living with my parents right now while I am prostrate and in grief. What will become of us?

~ thank you

I am amazed to have followers, in one day. Survivors whose blogs, chronicles of pain and triumph, I had already noticed and admired. The thoughtful comments on what initially felt like a frivolous post (changing the lyrics of a well-known song) show so much caring and community, understanding and acceptance of what is a tremendously…